2006/07/24

One Day When I Get My Act Together...

I find myself living in the, “someday, when I get my act together I’ll…” mode often. It consists of this little fantasy world with visions of me doing all kinds of stuff that the real me just can’t seem to do. I find it frustrating to not know what the magical catapult to hurl me from here to there is. I was sharing this frustration with my husband who gave me some very wise counsel that I want to pass on. He said something like, “we often want the big grand moment when permanent change will take place and we will have our acts together, but our pride could never handle that. So God gives victory in the little things instead, but we are too often looking for some huge change and don’t notice the grace in ‘little’ victories.” He went on to tell me about something he saw on Antiques Roadshow (we love this show, me for the antiques; Jason for the history as well as the rush from seeing someone’s yard sale bargain turn into a retirement fund). A woman’s mother died leaving her a travel trailer and its contents. The contents included a small, simple painting of a sailboat race. When the appraiser informed the woman that its value was over $100,000 the woman just started crying and said, “if only my poor mother knew what she had…” It wasn’t a Rembrandt or a Van Gogh. Indeed, we don’t even know the author’s name, and certainly had never seen this piece of art before. But it had far more value than the owner realized. This is what our lives are like. There will rarely be “Van Gogh art” moments when we finally have our acts together. If we go through the day looking for Van Gogh, and don’t see the simple work of art hanging in the trailer, we are poorer for it. Father, please help me to see the amazing grace at work in my life and in the lives of those around me each and every day. This grace comes because of the Gospel. Help me not to be ungrateful for the small steps in the right direction, or arrogantly assume they are just me doing what is expected, rather than the Holy Spirit at work in and through me, again, because of the Gospel. Help me to have eyes to see Your artwork in the everyday events of my life, to the praise and glory of Your grace given through the Gospel.

4 comments:

Danielle said...

I too, often find myself living with that kind of mindset. It is ultimately lack of contentment and lack of trust in Christ's purpose for my life. I have a hard time just living in the moment sometimes. But if I don't, I'll miss out on the everyday lessons God has for me. I also pray for spiritual eyes to see God's "artwork" of the everyday aspects of grace in my life.

Briana Almengor said...

I would say cleaning out your basement as detailed as you did w/ a husband recovering from surgery and four sick kids to care for is one of those moments of some major grace, my friend!!

The way Jason led you through it reminded me so much of how Lawrence leads me through my little "fits" with the great perspective and seemingly unrelated story to boot! :) Makes me grateful for a husband who is also one of those means of major grace in my life!

Zoanna said...

Wonderful analogy, friend. We should all list our Road Show finds of the spiritual kind quite regularly.I'm sure we have more than a double-wide under this roof alone.

FishMama said...

I didn't comment when you posted, but this has been really helpful to me. I yearn for the day when I "have my act together." Yet, that day is the day when I will be with Jesus, not the earthly day that I covet.